Oh well, I don’t know where to start. I’m feeling mixed emotion right now. I feel helpless and useless in this. As mentioned in my earlier post, some of you must be eager to know who is that someone. Well, in fact I myself also want to know more about that someone.
I met him once only. Yeah, I know. I can’t really judge a person in such a short time frame. Therefore, I would really love to know him more. But it’s just that time does not permit. He’s such a busy man. And I’m sure I’m not one of his priorities. All I can say is that he’s pretty cute and he’s really sweet. He’s very down to earth kind of person. Sigh… sometimes I hate myself for being so pushy. I guess I’m just too lonely. He might get the wrong ideas.

However, there’s another friend that I met online. This is totally opposite from the above. I have many nice conversations with him. From the conversation he’s pretty sweet as well. He keep wanting to meet me. Many times he has asked me out. But many times I’ve declined. I’m just afraid to lose another online friend. I really don’t know what to do. Should I give him a chance? He even asks me out on V day. Sigh…

I just hate myself for being like this. Am I desperate? Sigh… I think I am. And I think that is not a good thing. I guessed I’ve been in a relationship far too long. And things just changed all of a sudden. I’m still not used to it. I’ve tried talking to some of my close friends, but after telling it out, I feel so silly. I feel that such petty things I can’t handle it myself. All I asked for is some love and someone that cares for me. That feeling is really priceless. I just hope that I don’t make the same mistake again.

So will I go through this V day alone? Or will miracle happens?